Tired of Being a Christian

I read these words, "I'm tired of being a Christian." "Reborn and Shivering," my heart swells, tears rush to the surface because these words mean that

I am not alone.

These words are ones that others have been brave enough to talk about.

My heart issues are bottled up inside my soul. My pulse beats wildly even now, as I attempt to type out, beginning my journey through the difficult things. I sat with a friend a couple days ago and said, "I'm afraid of what people will say."

What will they say when they hear that I'm thinking of not reading my bible because it leaves me cynical and pulls me further under water. Drowning.

What will they say when they learn that I feel closest to Father ~

when my bare feet touch a cold earth

when I walk through trees as if lost

stand in the rain

read from poets of the past.

Will they disown me like other friends have because I stopped going to church?

I think of this place. The one I started as a safe haven. Why has it become another

hiding place?

She said, "Share those issues with God first... then show the world how He solved them," and I am inspired to remove the mask because I have hope that He will do just that.. solve them.

And so here I am-- walking out from the depths of shadows with a heart racing, I join the others in saying:

I'm Tired of Being a Christian.

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