Warrior(ess) Wandering

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I had a sweet sister tell me recently that the path I'm walking is going to leave me lonely. I pondered her words, chewed on them.

All week long.

I tried to write but felt as though the words were standing with sword in hand, fighting me the entire way. When I lose my words there's often a meaning hidden within that I'm just not getting yet.

So I pondered lonely.

I thought about my past. I thought about leaving church. I thought about the meaning of friends. I pondered concerns from family about the god who died.

I thought about this new wandering, my accepting His invitation for adventure.

I remembered the sojourners that I've met along the way. Brave warrioress' that offer me rest and a place in front of their fire because they too have journeyed long and hard before me. I sit with them as they give me nourishment, even if only for a bit.

Stargardener reminds me that Time is Fleeting and Erika encourages me to celebrate life. So I ponder the wishes. I ponder the word. I realize that I need this journey in order to celebrate.

Janae reminds me of this quote by Joseph Campbell::

"The familiar life horizon has been outgrown; the old concepts, ideals, and emotional patterns no longer fit; the time for the passing of a threshold is at hand."

I need time for the passing of a threshold. Time to wander with other wanderers.

And so I continue to think about lonely and I realize, that this sweet friend, her definition may be different than mine. She is surrounded by women from church. Leaving church, for her, would mean entering the lonely.

I'm surrounded by women from life. For the first time in a long time, I don't feel lonely.

I'm not lost.

Sweet sister,

I'm a warrior(ess) wandering.

Remember, "Not all who wander are lost."